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Intro 01:49
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The blinding light has took years to burn out it's love. Something gone in an instant just like your luck. Oh, I hope you find whatever it is you are looking for. Find yourself in poem that was told from years ago. All the relevance pertains nothing to your past or to your goals. Your appetite of lust is something to be concerned for. You claim to be on this trip of enlightenment but that's something that you earn. I wish I could help but to say the worst, I'm all out of luck. Well open your eyes and see what you've done to your man. I traveled all across this world to heal myself in sand. The blind man said "open your eyes. Love is obsolete. Just keep on going until you feel 100 percent complete. Living in bliss and harmony is no easy thing but let go of attachment and you'll be forever free. Your so called love and loss will no longer be."
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Here and Now 03:53
I want to live on the worlds tallest mountain. Be in one. Be in bliss. See the world for what it is and be enlightened. I want to meet every person I could possibly meet. Talk of life. Talk of god. Talk of wonders. Talk of laws and see what you're all about. I've done some shit that I ain't proud to say out loud but what's done is done, I've accepted it. I'm already over it but you people can't forget about. I know this world is no place for me. I know I'm going to drink till I fall asleep. Cause lying in my bed feels so right. It would only feel better if you were by my side. I want to be the best person I could possibly be. I want to be the warm yellow light that shines on your night and everything in-between. But there's something that just won't let be. I don't know if it's my past or maybe my dad. Oh, father, please help me. I know this world is no place for me. I know I'm going to drink till I fall asleep. Cause lying in my bed feels so right. It would only feel better if you were by my side. The truth, it is a quiet thing. Oh, trust me, I know these things. Remember all the times you laughed at me and I got off my path of realizing things. But look who has the short side of things. I wish you the best. I want to live on the worlds tallest mountain. Be in one. Be in bliss. See the world for what it is and be enlightened.
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We got drunk and kissed and sat around for hours. We talked of dreams and living by the sea. After the 13th one, my mind went elsewhere. Daydreaming of a place where I can bury all my grief. While I sit in my room loneliness creeps up on me and I feel more apathetic. All this weed I smoke, it's only temporary. Hey, I should quit. No, you said you'll still like me. I got my nose bloody before but not by a punch in the face. Feeling so weak and anxious. All these beers I drink. I kill selected memories. I just want to see my future and be complete. Though I may not succeed you sure did teach me something. Don't give up and be all you can be. We may take different paths but you'll still be my best friend. Telling me stories of all those dirty men. I'll still call to tell all my problems that I think are big. All my binges and high conversation. Maybe I'll see you somewhere down this crazy road. You can read my article in the Washington Post. I just hope I helped you cause you sure did help me. You taught me something. Don't give up and be all you can be.
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I used to sleep on the floor but now I'm up all night. I thought I had it all but I can't see the light. The boxes in the attic. My dad's old bike. They're now some past life. It turns out I'm not a man. I'm not even a boy. I'm a little less than human for all that I've done. I can't seem to fix it or even explore without my past haunting me. I can't find love or do nothing right. Adulthood is scary. I don't know why I try. I never signed up for this. I can't even get my priorities right. I don't know where my life is heading. I just float aimlessly down this river of guilt and more. I think I'll have one for that and another round on me for tonight. I'm no stranger to loss. I'm no fool for you. My karma's catching up to me and I don't know what to do. I've been trying to do good but something keep's haunting me. The past keeps on reoccurring too. How did I end up on your doorstep with flowers in my hand just to say I miss so you can slam the door. Oh, I think you're over me now. Whatever makes you happy, darling. I think I'll go home and have a Stella Artois and a cigarette to drown out all of my flaws. It's temporary but anything to heal the daunting life. I'm still trying to reach enlightenment. "Sadhana" is my wrist. Oh, my mantra please help. I'll do anything. Raaja, Bhakti, Karma and Jnana are the only things I need. When I wake up my future's right in my face but I'm too blind and beaten to see the truth. When I travel I think I'm getting away from all of my problems but that's not quite true.
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Tabula Rusa 04:24
The sun is setting in your mind. You want to say I'm crazy. Well, that's just fine. But you want to find a man who is sane. Good luck, darling, all men are filled with hate. Just keep going and I promise I'll stay. My insecurities are catching up to me and I'm scared you have another man in mind. I don't know if he's in California or here tonight. I'll just go to sleep and hope for the best. Wait for your call as I write these songs. I can never go to sleep until you call. So I guess I'll be waiting up all night. Your carelessness shines in the night. Your love shows in the morning light. On the bed in the basement of the midwest. You woke up clinging on to me so tight. Making love and feeling young. Talks of dreams and endless nights. Kerouac and Dass watch along. Hear you talk like your from another time and I know I'm just a fool for you. What's left of my mind always aches but I hear you got mood swings and nauseous nights. Well this is what you wanted, right? Indulging in other men all of the time. Well you go and choose your own fate. Changing yourself for the next brood. Your true colors will shine tonight and you took advantage of my love. Just one more word before you leave. I never knew you were this person to be.

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These are all demos of songs of which I plan to record with drums and many other instruments. All of this is terrible. I'm sorry.

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released July 23, 2014

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